DestroyedAngel (dstroyedangel) wrote,
DestroyedAngel
dstroyedangel

  • Mood:
  • Music:

I cant save you, even if I try...



We live in the darkness in the shadow of the light because we want to carry the burden of truth



Yeah soooo what has been going on... I took that Marketing test feeling I did like a B on it and well I got a C which is fuckin gay there is no such thing as percents its just A-B-C-D-F... I'm pissed cause it was a multiple choice test and I usually do hella bad on those and I REALLY STUDIED I SWEAR.... I was gonna cry but yeah I'll save it when things get really hopeless...

My english class on Tuesday was pretty interestin, I love my english teacher he's so beyond words I'm sure you all know how much I think he's awesome-- but yeah in class I really try even if I'm not always right or make the most sense but I try... But yeah at the end of the class he was like to this one guy who acts like he's all smart and shit: you copied that word for word, and dont give me if's or butt's you got an F... and to these other guys who have no respect for my teacher or his teaching they come into class for like 10 minutes with their attitudes and cigarettes and leave or they never show up 1/2 the time anyways he swore the living daylights outta these people and it made me feel better for some reason- stuff like that always does, oh yeah I owe him some money for a book he lent me... note....

Emmm yea so whats been going on, I had 2 dreams bout Tavit, one was with him sittin in some row ahead of me with some of his family at some Church service (I've never been to Church) and I was sitting next to his dad talking about Tavit and oh my god was Tavit beautiful.. like for real-- the other dream was last night where he came to visit my house like OH MY GOD thats never going to happen and my dad was being horribly HORRIBLY sarcastic to me about Tavit and this was the craziest thing ever I let him come into my room and closed the door and right when I touched his hand my brother was yelling telling me that dad is gonna kill you :S... So I was like I'm showing him my books and yeah then I told him I was sorry but it would be better if he left because I didnt want trouble and when he was about to leave my dad was like say bye to him and hug him--- I was like wtf?! So we both did with mile smiles and he left and my dad thought he was a pretty nice kid...!?

Whatever...things between us have been pretty good lately, he mailed me this package and keeps telling me to go check and see if its arrived and I keep slacking off or forgetting, some bitch I am.. and today he's like, I walked in the rain to send you that package- it made me feel like crap... And then he just got down and shit and he feels so hopeless so upset and I dont know how to reach him... I'm out there to help him ahead of being his girl or friend-----he had to leave to work...
But I do know that when I see him in a lil bit I'm gonna tell him this

I dont wann sit there and tell u wat everyone says
"everythin happens for a reason" "life is a rollercoaster" "one day ull get ur turn"
I'm juss gonna tell u the truth ....
Life is unfair and you've had good times and really bad ones... and good things happen to bad people AMIDST bad things happen to good people! but we juss gotta deal with it and try make the best out of wat we have, be grateful trust me there is always something worse that can always happen...

I remember Chester said something along the lines of you can sit and complain or you can get off your ass and do something about it...

This is one of the rhymes my boy wrote a few days ago ---fuck he's talented:::

yo, i cant complain as i paint the picture, the scripture will hit ya then this picture i paint,
its all staind with the images i hate, try to rid of the kid i debate, shit so controversal im underground, how can i speak when i got the mark, of cain shit all this nonsense never ends my pain,
but ryhimg never stopped me from lettin yall know, i never said no when i let my voice go, so so what constitutional rights, to bright n to tight, mimicking this spot banishes all the light i drop right next to my spite, in my spite i write, over n over till i see my own sight......now my visions gone for so long till i get it back wait these days till i sleep in my own pack, be born at 12 years old and know all the knicks n knacks to be risin would help every sack over the shoulder, be bolder than the rest a lesson learned from pops, travel over crops and dont stop till the momentary flop....kerplop boom, dont smoke dem shrooms, next very minute youll face will be the room, cause thats how life is a trip of acid, live fo what, rather get plastured, u think about the cards what u benn dealt, who ever asked u if u needed some help......now quit thinkin and begin the drinkin, sink in the cushion n forcefully open the door i got things in store that wont be ignored, i was a young boy who got done n scored....and now i kno that these innocent bitches are whores, actin out at such a young age, lokin to get done, backlashin against rage, parents non stop chompin against the time limit they page, no response, shes ontop the perp who wont stop the pop.....and when shes done she think she had fun and these days cant trust shit, they be hiding secret shit up under a dick, kinda sick but truth comes out, 2 months later shes out n about, lookin again for another close friend, someone to get done in a one night stand.....and dont pretend my words are pointless, cause now shes gettin checked with all appointments, ointments with creams n shit, never give birth cause of that 6 inch dick, ruined her life and no future for her, not even a child under her own torture, so be blessed with what think about yo game, make one mistake and it all can change...peace...and im out....

My soldier lain depressed me last night, oh God her guy is SUCH a POS.. he is so lucky he is not my physical presence cause I would have ripped him up, he cheated on her thats not hte worst part---- the WORST IS that he lied, he took her heart, her trust and loyalty--- WHAT THE FLYING FUCK... I love my soldier and he is going to pay for cheating on her, if he couldnt be serious with her then he should have told her straight up, not doing multiple relationships at the same time, and she found out secretly and she wanted to continue like that, I was like girl confront his ass...

Gosh why is there so much anger, pain and hate... Everything rips everyone apart even the strong that try to see this world for its possibilities.. its all a matter of time before your shredded and become what they want you to be...
Subscribe
  • Post a new comment

    Error

    Comments allowed for friends only

    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your IP address will be recorded 

  • 5 comments